Today is January 2, 2007. This has been the worst week of my life. Last week I entered into a deep depression state. I didn't want to eat, go outside, or do anything. All I wanted to do was to lay on my bed and sleep.

Finally three or four days ago I remembered something I read on this forum. It said:
[url=http://www.wallpaperama.com/forums/god-as-i-walk-through-the-valley-of-the-shadow-of-death-i-will-fear-no-evil-t480.html]As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil[/url]

This scripture found in Psalm 23:4 gave me strength to get up from bed and pray to Jesus to help me overcome this sense of hopelessness that i feel in my heart. I felt defeated, worthless. I even mentioned to my wife that I wanted to die. These were not very good thoughts. With God's help, I was able to get up from bed. Over the next few days, I still felt the pain in my heart. You see, I have a big problem that I have to face, and I don't know the solution. I will have to face this problem in the next few months and I am afraid of failing. If failure happens, that will mean an extreme change in my whole life, i will have to start right from the beginning, I will lose all my life, my house, my cars, my belongings, everything I've worked so hard to get.

For more inspiration and counsel, or just words of wisdom, you can check out this page:

http://www.covenantkeepers.org/articles/general-helps/how_to_deal_with_depression.htm

Please pray for me that I will succeed in whatever happens and everything goes fine in my interview.

UPDATE: today is November 15, 2009 - since i wrote this post here almost three years ago, i am still facing my battle. I will have to face it in 2012. I will update with whatever the outcome is. but i am much stronger now. i know that whatever happens Jesus is with me. He gives me strength in knowing that i am not alone and he will take care of me. He always has. Jesus has given me soooo many blessings, i am very thankful for Him. Bless all his mercy.